Note: A apologize that this is such a text-heavy post. It's meant to be a reflection, so I guess that's to be expected. :-)
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This is what I am using as the definition of my word:
Be aware ...
... of my surroundings.
... of what brings me happiness.
... of what is important in my life.
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I feel that, so far this year, I have been more aware of my surroundings. As I take photos for Project 365 I feel that I am paying a lot more attention to the little things that makes my life unique. I am more aware of my little quirks and oddities (of which I have many). I have also been enjoying living in the Northeast a little more. I have always hated living in a place that is SO cold in the winter and SO humid in the summer. During the winter I really felt the snow was beautiful. I looked past the cold and the fact that when I breathed in through my nose I could feel my boogers freezing. I enjoyed the winter as much as I could. Lately, it has been raining non-stop. We haven't really had a summer to speak of here in Boston. However, with the rain this week will come thunderstorms and I LOVE thunderstorms. I'm looking forward to waking in the middle of the night this week to lightning flashing in the windows and thunder booming above my head.
I feel that, so far this year, I have been more aware of what make me happy. I consciously spend less time worrying about all the things I want to get done and more time actually doing them. I am more aware of the things I really want to do rather than the things I think I should be doing. Many times I have had downtime I have felt that I should be scrapbooking but I just didn't feel like it. Instead, I thought of what I really wanted to do be doing. Sometimes it's reading, or making cards, or surfing blogs for inspiration, or simply doing nothing at all. Whatever it was at the time, that's what I did, guilt-free. I have also started analyzing those things that are getting in the way of doing what makes me happy. Scrapbooking generally makes me happy but I have been feeling that I can't do any scrapbooking in my space because it's so cluttered. In order to get this under control I have resolved to purge my supplies and only keep what I will honestly use. So far I have felt really good about this change and feel that with a less crowded space I will be able to create more. (Uncluttered space = Uncluttered mind) Being aware of what makes me happy has also helped me to know what makes me UNhappy. Perhaps this is an even greater gift in the end. It is more difficult to change these things but I feel that just knowing them is half the battle.
I feel that, so far this year, I have been more aware of what is really important in my life. It is important to me to document my life. It is important to me to live with my photos. It is important to me to learn new ways to scrapbook (digital & traditional.) It is important to be to spend time with my family and friends and to be aware of those family and friends who truely want to spend time with me. It is important to me to allow Jason to grow as a professional and to be supportive of his opportunities and the decisions we make together. It is important to me to remember this chapter in our lives and what I am feeling as we grow as husband and wife. It is important to me that we grow together and that we experience the ups and downs life has to offer us and that we support each other through these times. It is an incredible feeling to live every day with my best friend and it's important to me to be able to hold onto this feeling wherever our lives take us. It is important to me to travel and see and experience and be aware of new things. I have realized (through being aware of the things that really make me happy) that traveling may not mean going to Europe or Egypt or Australia for a month (though I really want to go to those places!) It could mean taking a smaller trip over a weekend or taking a long weekend to somewhere we have never been before. Spending a weekend looking at cherry blossoms in D.C. or squishing pennies in NYC could be just as much fun.
I feel that I have done a good job at being aware of the things I really want to be aware of this year. So far, I feel that my word has served me well and I'm excited for the next 6 months of having this word to reflect on and influence me.
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Did you choose a word for 2009? What was it? Has it been in the back of your mind this year, effecting your decisions? Or have you not thought about it at all? Either way, it's ok. Maybe you aren't 'feeling' your word lately... maybe you and your word need to reconnect a bit in the last half of the year. Post in the comments how you are getting along with your word. :-)
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